admittedly, I often question my own values. I have accepted other mildly contradictory paradigms in my life, why is my current state of mind so truthful? As this state of mind is quite oppositional to the contemporary human identity, it is sometimes difficult to not find myself struggling against the naturalizing tendencies of human society.

Yesterday I discovered a significant purpose of this mindset ... yet it is a purpose borne of necessity, hopefully not overstated: true anti-racism is achieved through destruction of the identity (as opposed to the ego per se).

Within this fast moving, cosmopolitan society we come in contact with many people who we expect to never interact with again -- or if we do, it would be at arms length. How are non-monetized conflicts to be resolved in this space? I would contend that the most common non-verbal and non-physical expressions of retribution is attribution of a wrong to a race, a gender, an age, a lifestyle ... whatever. People are grasping for ways to punish other people that they've judged (for evidence see the success of crime dramas, such as the 'Law and Order' production machine), when there is no formal monetary recourse, and legal recourse is far too cumbersome, the bad blood often falls to prejudice.

Loosing identity is a very painful experience ... blameful fingers are pointed towards urbanism and capitalism ... it is becoming clear that these sorts of neutral conditions cannot be scapegoated ... if deeper causes are to be identified, the "religion" of modernity, of knowledge, might be taken to task.